It's been quite a while since my last blog, one reason being that the Harris household has been super super busy, but secondly because in all honesty I lost a little bit of love for the sport.
As a speedway fan, I found it difficult to be a supporter. Whether it be the amount of team changes, the lack of regular meetings, the amount of clubs the sport is losing, or the rule book.
I attended my first meeting at Brandon at just 3 weeks new in 1981 and remained a bees fan throughout. With the closure of Brandon, I have since gained a little soft spot for the Panthers.
The showground is one of my favourite tracks to watch Chris do his thing, and as family we have made some lovely friends and some special memories, especially with Amara-Mae & Cruz (who sadly never got to experience Brandon) and now with the Panthers closing, it all just felt a bit disheartening.
Throw into the mix being married to Chris, where I've personally witnessed him being treated poorly, and I've had to pick up the pieces and deal with the aftermath of the situations - from the tears and tantrums of our children after their morning at the bike ramp was ruined by the phone calls from Leicester, to the difficult conversations trying to convince Chris not to hang up his boots just yet, to having to support his decision of bidding farewell to representing his country for GB Speedway Team.
Watching someone you love being so proud and passionate to represent their country and giving their all and so much more, to then see them make the decision to walk away, made it very hard for me and us as a family.
They say all good things come to an end, but he's still smashing it representing his country for Team GB in the Long Track and just 2 days ago captained the team to Bronze Medal in the Long Track of Nations 2023 with a 25+5 point haul, It all just adds to the emotional rollercoaster of being the wife of a professional sportsman.
But let me tell you, a couple of weeks ago, my love for the sport came back with a bang.
It started with Chris moving back to the panthers and showing not only what he brings to the track, but also what he brings to a team - the Bomber effect as some would say.
Then our son Cruz took to the shale for the first time at Beaumont Park with Chris adoringly watching on with immense pride as he had a practice (even though Cruz didn't want to practice, he wanted to race the big kids).
Followed by a night on the Perry Barr shale for Cruz in the 7.15pm demonstration laps, filmed and shared on YouTube by Clean Cut Sports.
My favourite of all, was witnessing Cruz riding on the panthers shale with a crowd of supporters who waited behind to cheer him on, and after a few demo laps, he thanked the fans like a true superstar with a bomber-esque stop and wave. I can't tell you how many times I've watched the video, or how many times it's bought a tear or two to my eye ....
Personally, I don't know what state the sport will be in circa 2036 when Cruz may want to follow in his dads footsteps, but you only have to look at the crowds in recent meetings, which proves the sport we love still has a huge potential to grow again in the UK, here's hoping ......
As I sit here finishing this blog, Chris's phone is ringing for the millionth time today 'there's always a deal to be done' in his words, I can't say too much right now - I'll save that for another blog ........